Georgi’s Story

How many coincidences do we have to see before we realize that it isn’t just coincidence? How many times do our prayers have to be answered before we notice?

I grew up in a Christian family. Going to church, praying and worshiping were just habits for me back then. They were just things that I did because everyone else in my group did them to fit in. They were my ticket into the kind of normal life. Most of the time I didn’t even think about God or what he was really doing in my life. Most of the time my thoughts were focused on me. What was I doing, how did I effect other people, how did other people effect me and so on. I was so caught up in myself that I barely even noticed the once human, ever loving God, beside me, always guiding me and protecting me.

When I was five years old, I was diagnosed with diabetes. Ever since then, life has been a struggle. Often I try to hide how much of a struggle it is by saying the old brush off comments like: “its no big deal”, “I can handle it” or “I’m fine”. But I really am not, not without God. As you might know, diabetes is a very complicated disease. I have to constantly monitor my blood sugar, which varies greatly during the day, and regulate it with insulin and sugars. Over exercising, eating too much, sleeping in too late and giving myself too much insulin are daily threats to my life. I have had countless encounters with death but every time God is there, holding my hand, whispering in my ear that I may not leave this world quite yet. In my head, I kind of imagine me and God on a constant IM or an ongoing skype message where he can see me always but I can only hear him. His webcam just doesn’t quite work yet. In hearing him I am not claiming at all that God speaks to me directly. That would be awesome, but God does speak to me in many ways. I have found that prayer is the strongest form of communication between God and I.

Jesus, God’s only son is the computer, the webcam, the vessel, which connects me to God. Isn’t it amazing to think that God loved us so much that he sent his only son, Jesus Christ, to the earth to have people like you and me persecute him, torture him and hang him up on a cross to die? Jesus Christ, the ever loving, wise and wonderful son of God, died on the cross for you and me, so that our sins could be forgiven and that we could join him up in heaven after we leave our life on Earth. Jesus Christ is our path to God. All we need to do is believe in him and we can be with him in heaven forever!

You might find this to be reaching out a bit and some people may say that I am seeing what I want to see, but I know that my prayers are answered everyday. God is always with me. In school, health, with my friends, on the road, at my job etc. if I am stressed out about lab reports or homework assignments that are due I just ask God for patience and grace so that I may finish the assignment and I can. Sometimes I even find out that a class is canceled or the assignment has been pushed back. When my friends are having struggles in school, health, or relationships, I ask God to heal them, give them strength and grace to get through it and they are fine after a while. The great thing about the wonders of God is that it really does make you wonder. Sometimes you can’t always pin his deeds on him. He never takes credit or shows that he had anything to do with it. God is not proud. He does not need to prove that he loves you. He just does. That is why you never know if it was really God who saved you from a diabetic coma, who helped relieve your stress, who showed his love for you through the beauty of a sunset, who held you and cried with you when your grandma died and gave you strength to stand back up when you fell down. This is our father. Through faith I know that he is with me. His grace, his strength and his ultimate, unchanging, never failing love sustains me.